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March 12th, 2007 (03:56 pm)
contemplative

current mood: contemplative
current song: Are You Ready for Love - AudioA

Today is a beautiful day :]

Spring has to be my new favorite season. Except maybe summer. I've come to dislike winter so much, which is strange because it used to be my favorite. Then again it isn't all that strange because I've changed a lot and like to think of myself as more sunshine-y and happy than I used to be. So maybe it's normal.

Last night at church we had to do a life-map and it was really interesting to see my highs and lows. Things I thought didn't matter to me did, and things I thought had a huge impact on my life never even popped in my mind until afterwards. Strange. I suppose it's all about perspective.

Speaking of perspective, I think I'm finally getting really excited for college. I was sort of dreading it but honestly I think I'll be fine. Things will be strange at first but I am so ready to move on from whatever stage I am in right now. I mean this stage isn't terrible but I feel very discontented with everything. Relationships, school, social life, even the books I loved. I used to love cheesy romance novels with predictable plots and all of that, but I tried to read one the other day and I just can't. I want more. And conversations, I've noticed, have become completely mundane. It's like, "So nice weather. Where are you going to school? Are you excited? How are things? Any good, new bands? Okay bye!" I'm tired of that. I have interesting conversations with a few of my friends every now and then but I'm tired of small talk.

Maybe I'm just moving on? I'm not sure.

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Posted by: leonydas (leonydas)
Posted at: May 13th, 2007 04:49 pm (UTC)

i havent heard from you in a long time. how are you?

Posted by: JJ <3 (marredkiss12)
Posted at: May 13th, 2007 09:04 pm (UTC)

I'm pretty good, how about yourself?

Posted by: leonydas (leonydas)
Posted at: May 13th, 2007 09:45 pm (UTC)

im good. how is everything going? have you graduated? if so, congratulations! i think i'll share this irony with you:

i moved into this apartment a year ago, and i always thought it would feel this certain way, a certain atmosphere i guess. it has never felt like that, not until today, the day i'm packing up my things to move. is that ironic or what?

Posted by: JJ <3 (marredkiss12)
Posted at: May 14th, 2007 01:01 am (UTC)

I haven't graduated yet, but its less than a month away :]

That is both ironic and inconvenient, but I suppose if it felt right 1/365 days, it wasn't all that right anyway.

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