current mood: contemplative
current song: Are You Ready for Love - AudioA
Today is a beautiful day :]
Spring has to be my new favorite season. Except maybe summer. I've come to dislike winter so much, which is strange because it used to be my favorite. Then again it isn't all that strange because I've changed a lot and like to think of myself as more sunshine-y and happy than I used to be. So maybe it's normal.
Last night at church we had to do a life-map and it was really interesting to see my highs and lows. Things I thought didn't matter to me did, and things I thought had a huge impact on my life never even popped in my mind until afterwards. Strange. I suppose it's all about perspective.
Speaking of perspective, I think I'm finally getting really excited for college. I was sort of dreading it but honestly I think I'll be fine. Things will be strange at first but I am so ready to move on from whatever stage I am in right now. I mean this stage isn't terrible but I feel very discontented with everything. Relationships, school, social life, even the books I loved. I used to love cheesy romance novels with predictable plots and all of that, but I tried to read one the other day and I just can't. I want more. And conversations, I've noticed, have become completely mundane. It's like, "So nice weather. Where are you going to school? Are you excited? How are things? Any good, new bands? Okay bye!" I'm tired of that. I have interesting conversations with a few of my friends every now and then but I'm tired of small talk.
Maybe I'm just moving on? I'm not sure.